Wednesday, September 9, 2009

In search of...something.

The last couple of weeks have been weird, healthwise. I had chest pain that sent me to the emergency room, but a stress test concluded that my heart was fine and it was probably my GERD. I've been taking medication for it for 15 years and I'd really love to get off of it, but every time I try I get such bad rebound symptoms that I can't. Then I came down with what may be a cold or may be the flu- piggy or non-piggy variety. I'm seeing the doctor today.

So what does this have to do with my art? I guess nothing- and everything. When I'm stressed, I tend to get sick. I had to put Samwise, my lovely pyrenees/golden cross to sleep a couple of weeks ago, I just started back to university full time and I'm trying to survive on unemployment with the occasional little art money on the side. I see the need for steadier income looming, but I'm not sure how to approach the problem. I've been through this before. I did art for a living for nearly 12 years. But I'm older now, and while I enjoy the murals and faux, my body is not liking them so much anymore. I figure I can maybe do the heavy duty physical labor for another couple of years, but then what? So, back to illustration. I wrote and illustrated two books that were published by Random House in 2001 and 2002. They were under my former married name, which is unfortunate, but I do have contacts. So what holds me back? Not sure. Maybe that's the something I'm in search of. Or maybe I just need a good agent... More later, thanks for listening.